split personality

i think i have some kind of split personality.

one moment i'm panicking like hell over the worst things that can ever happen, and the next moment i'm so determined to make this adventure the time of my life.

sigh

but seriously, can i actually survive a year abroad ALONE?????

God knows.

I just need some optimism and confidence, really.

seriously, i've been venturing into the less travelled road all my life. sec school, jc, canoeing, business, science, and now this.

whats there to be afraid of???

EVERYTHING.

anyway DEAREST rokcradle, I had a surprise 3rd round of interview today that I totally did not prepare/had no idea of. they disguised it as an informal meeting and i believed them.

well.

I don't know really, but this is the last straw.

it could change my life (positively or negatively), or i could simply continue remaining in my comfort zone.

the waiting game must be played..

i'm waiting.